Friday, June 06, 2008
Ain't too Proud
I'm admitting my failure here that I've totally blown the last several months of hard work and dedication, and really I don't care if no one out there is listening, this is for me. I thought maybe if I saw it in writing, with my own two eyes (HELLO FAILURE) that I'd wake up.
Last Monday when I stepped on the scales I was blown away with the numbers that revealed themselves to me. They had increased quite dramatically. And it was completely all my fault. One week a while back of bad food choices and no exercise sent me spiraling out of control and I haven't touched down yet. And even when I've tried to get back on track, I've totally failed.
Insert sadness and disappointment here.
Which hey! Makes me head straight for the pantry and refrigerator to see what else I can stuff in my face. I've got to stop doing this to myself.
It's obvious that I can't make it to my goal alone. And even when I join up for challenges and stuff, I start off all gung-ho then fizzle out a few weeks into it. It is just a horrible cycle that I keep repeating over and over and over. And I'm tired of it. Just once I'd like to be happy with my progress, and successful at reaching my goal weight.
Anyone have words of wisdom to help pull me out of this food funk!? I'd appreciate it.
3 comments:
The only thing I would say is that we all give ourselves too hard of a time, too much guilt and shame. After all, if you were talking down a friend from the same situation, all you'd feel in your heart is compassion and understanding. But when the same thing happens to us, we beat ourselves about the head (or the chubby thighs, take your pick).
For a while, keeping a food journal really helped me. But once I learned a few things, I fell out of the habit.
oh this post made my heart break!! i know just how you feel! what's worked for me is sheer preparation. that is all. just preparing.
purge everything bad from your home. then, write a list of good foods and really think about it. for breakfast lunch and dinner and snacks. (i do the body for life thing because you can still have everything -- pasta, bread, potatoes, the only catch is it has to be 100% whole wheat. you eat six times a day. plus there is a "cheat" day built into the week where i can have cheesecake, blizzards, pizza, whatever --so i never ever feel like i'm depriving myself.) i have lost 17 pounds on it in just over 2 months so i'm telling you, it works.
but that's the thing. if i feel like i'm "dieting" it never works. i am a complete head case.
then go shopping for all the "good" food. and figure out what you want your workouts to be and build them into your week. it's all about being prepared. when you're prepared, you set yourself up for success. that's my advice, arm yourself and take control that way. and don't be so hard on yourself if you make a bad choice here and there -- so what!
anyway -- i'm gonna still keep going, i have a long way to go, and i believe there's safety in numbers. xo
Well, I can say that you are not alone at all. Best of luck! It'll be totally worth it in the end when you feel at ease in your body.
The cycles are all too familiar to me. I've been toying recently with the idea of getting someone on board to help me along. It worked wit the study, but it has to be someone you completely trust and are not jealous of. Because if they start doing better than you it can be really really hard...
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